#sayhername

The Sandra Bland documentary was definitely the perfect thing to watch tonight. I have been plagued by this question of How do I make my fire sustainable? Sabre suggested affirmations and speaking things into existence to power the the fire. Another friend suggested by doing the next right thing like AA says. This is where I might go off the rails a bit but please give me a chance. Battles are won because of the people who fought them. That sounds completely like of course Anthony of course. I think the common trope or hope is that we have some great leader that rises and galvanizes the troops towards victory. Waiting for Superman, the culture seems to be waiting for Malcolm. We are living in the now. I say that to mean, we all have thoughts of what we would have done if we were around during slavery or lived during the Nazi era but we are literally living with Nazis. We are living through a systematic genocide of black and brown people under the guise of authority. The black holocaust is happening now. Black bodies hit these streets and some are appalled, some chose to ignore, I however always feel empowered. I always feel hope. I feel like I stand on their shoulders to push up and forward. That is why I continue to pour my energy into various political endeavors. Time wanes on and that fire and passion never fully subsides but diminishes a bit. It hurts me because the fact is I truly want to live my life on a hundit. The thing I tell myself is if not now then when. You don't have to be a Malcolm or a Martin to embodied their spirit. You just have to be courageous enough to continuously do the work that needs to be done. You might not get a holiday or a documentary but you will help us, the collective us, march on towards that perpetual goal of absolute freedom. The fire comes from learning about people like Sandra Bland. The fire comes from organizing small groups. The fire comes by living with a god damn sense of purpose. Her story is magnified greater because of who she was as a person. She was about that life. I never met her but I instantly have a profound and deep love for her. I need to tap into the pools of that fight energy everyday not only from her but from others. I feel it in my bones and I feel in my spirit. To borrow the phrase from Rick Warren but I am so fucking ready to live this purpose driven life.