Tuesday, July 31, 2012


There has not been much that has been going in my life. Nothing really crazy. There are a couple of outlandish typical Anthonyesque stories but I will save that for another time.

I guess something recent that happen was that a friend asked me to a sperm donor for her child. It definitely shocked me. I love this girl but I feel that she would be making a crazy life decision at such a young age. I know that she is pretty bitter about love and has a couple of failed relationships but that is no reason to give up on love. Most of my friends call me the romantic and that I wear my heart on my sleeve and blah blah blah. I think its because as I am cynical about the world, I am quite the opposite when it comes to love. I think that people often times don't take a chance on anything and go out of their way to play it safe when they shouldn't. I told her to pray about it first and I will pray about it to really really think things threw. The ramifications of this would be long lasting and quite significant.

The other thing that happen of worth was that my great aunt died. It is crazy because a lot of people said they were sorry for my lost and the immediate response was "No its ok, I really didnt like her". My cousins were really heart broken and I am close to them so I did feel bad for their lost but I do remember the dark and hateful things their grandmother has done to my grandmother. I know as a Christian I am called to forgive but man that woman is up there with the devil himself. It was heart wrenching to say the least to watch my grandmother go threw so much pain over the death of her sister. After we buried her sister, my grandmother's sister in law wanted us to take care of my grandmother's arrangements. We know this is a little messed up and morbid but from a logistical and practical standpoint it was a good decision. My grandmother picked out her card her casket and things that she wanted read and other weird odd and ends. Every time I think about my grandmother dying it really really makes my heart ache. While we were there my Aunt told her she couldn't pass away until her daughters give her grandchildren. My grandmother threw in that she wouldn't pass away until she knew I was married with a woman who cooked and clean for me. I love her so much. Shes so crazy but I love her.

Sunday, July 1, 2012

A conversation between mother and son

My mother is beyond the craziest woman on this planet. I went to go see my grandmother today and her and my Aunt from Georgia have been pestering about taking them to go see my mother for quite some time. I finally cave today. I did not have any real plans so I said sure why not. I already know that this trip is going to end with me pissed off and my mother cackling like the witch from the Wizard of Oz.

I tried calling her and she didn't answer her phone. We get down there and I remember where her old apartment is but not her new one. I am already angry at this point. I get her new apt info from one of her friends. I knock on the door and none other but my drug addict thieving brother answers the door. He doesn't know where my mother is but eventually thinks she is at her friends house. I tell him to get her and she  comes and already comes in yelling about something or another. I decide to leave at this point to go see my other brother and dad. I come back and my grandmother has decided she is tired and ready to leave. She goes to the bathroom, so I decide this is the time to talk to my mother. I tell her you see she is dying and all she wants is to see you. My mother's response, I don't give a shit! I am dying too! I start getting angry and tell her that I don't understand that as her daughter, how can she not feel any responsibility towards her own mother. Her response, I wont be crying at her funeral. This doesn't bother me. I don't have time to be running up to north jersey just because she is dying with cancer.

At this point I already see the futility of my arguments and just say its time to go. My mother is insane and I love her but she is insane. I know people think I am one cold hearted bastard but that woman takes the cake.