Tuesday, July 30, 2013

Brotherly Love

My mother rarely calls me. A great deal of it has to do with the relationship we have cultivated with one another over the years. She called me tonight to tell me that my heroin addicted brother is at it again. He stole not only my mothers boyfriends car but also part of their rent money. I can only assume he used the money to get high because my mother informed me that he was currently in the hospital because he OD once again. She was crying because she didn't know what to do. She said, " I cant take this anymore" I understand her pain and I think I understand the pain of addiction as well. I know my brother is not going to change unless he wants to. He just escaped from one rehab and another wont work unless he wants it to. I write this not to snitch and put my family business out there I write this because it effects my sobriety to keep all this nonsense inside. She kept saying to me that if I was in the same position she wouldn't call the cops on me. I told her that we are all the same. We are all stubborn and pig headed and think we are right. I told her the best thing that she could do for him is call the cops and hope that he gets locked up for a really long time. She was concern about him dying if she does call. I said if he continues to use, he will be dead anyway. I told her that is not her son anymore. Her son died a long time ago. She still refuses to give him this tough love. I don't see any other alternative for my brother. It sucks to have to deal with this, there was a time where this call would drive me to drink. It caused me to drink to not have to deal with the issue. To drink instead of play out the fictional hero role I've created for myself but almost never in reality actually followed through with. I hope no one else has to go through something like this. There is a solution out there. I have full confidence in 12 step programs. A familiar quote is that many people need AA or NA but it those who want it that actually succeed.   

1 comment:

  1. I feel your frustration, & I agree that Mumu has to want the change @ this point all we can do is pray for him,