Hate to sound like an emotional wreck but I put myself in a situation that I am usually do. I thought by now I would know better. I think I really do it because I don't really care. I was talking to my friend John about my loneliness and how it puts me into these situations and he usually tells me the same thing. Life is about balance. It's a damn near impossible thing to obtain but balancing life will ultimately lead to happiness. He also said dating in your late 20s is nothing like dating earlier. I get it though. I love a young woman with a hot body, what man doesn't. These woman though are just superficial and could never offer me what a woman of substance can. I genuinely think I'm over trying to find my power partner and be that power couple taking over our respective worlds. I just want someone nice to settle down with and won't stab me in my sleep. I think I'm setting the bar high there. The one good positive thing that I feel is that I'm starting to get my mojo back. I'm feeling cocky and arrogant and in order to run the system that I run I need those two traits running high. I need to feel like I'm the shit to keep the managers and the staff in line. I build systems based on hard work and discipline. It only works if I am confident in my abilities. I got my swagger back and now it's time to dominate.
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