I've been wanting to write something for a while but could never find a topic. My mind is a jumble mess again. I always find it odd at how I can be operating at two ends of the spectrum simultaneously. I am at peace of sorts and yet at the same time out of balance. Is God the answer? I feel like it is. I miss being in a church, a good church. My cousin is a new believer and a pretty strong example of how far faith can take you. I need to start praying again.
I also think I am pretty lonely. Recently, one of my old flings just got married and let's just say she was not the cream of the crop. Not only that but I had one of the worse one night stands of my life. Typically, I wouldn't hold back and share all the intimate details but even I think this situation was pretty ridiculous. I had a what the hell are you doing with your life moment after it was all said and done. I started to do the online dating world again. It so damn interesting the information we put out there about ourselves to try to foster any tidbit of a connection. I wonder how long this search will last before I am side track again. I am really going to stop easing around with crazy women this year. Aren't they all crazy though?